friendship

so. Life has been busy. We got snowed-in in Okotoks last weekend. That was exciting. Lots of snow, movies, family drama, and friends. The weeks have been slow when we think about how many days till daddy's done school, and fast when I look back. We have been doing so much and really digging our teeth into life. Little Em too, who, since the last sleep post, has decided maybe sleep isn't so fun. (actually I think has got a gassy upset tummy so we're starting a homeopathy program today...lets hope it works!!!) So sleeplessly we have been cooking curries galore (hubby thinks that may be the cause of em's night waking...perhaps...), baking pumpkin pie, playing trucks, playing in the snow, a little painting, a little crochet, and a lot of dreaming.

I ve been enjoying my friend's blog posts...so much great stuff out there. Ive been thinking about friendship...what it is, how to be better at it, how to appreciate it. Ive never been very good socially, Im a hermit at heart, and I just feel always like I am trying too hard when it comes to 'hanging out'. That must be an oxymoron - "trying" to hang out. As if doing nothing is hard work - but to me it is.

I was listening to a podcast of an interview with an old family friend, who talks about authentic relationships and I realize boy, are there any authentic relationships that dont include yammer about child raising, cooking, where to get the best snow gear, or how to save money at the grocery store? Not that these things are a problem, just when they start to become the core of your friendships. Then you find yourself in a situation where friends come and go, and you really dont care too much. And you're just chatting to fill in the lonely blanks. So, thats what I'm feeling right now anyway. Im always working on my social graces. I feel a little silly saying it, but maybe I need some practice. Is anyone out there happy in their social life? Is it even possible? Anyways, here's a post to say that I would love to find a way to have rich, authentic and warm friendships. Wouldnt you?